Why do I do these things to myself?: A mini list

1. I am certified computer-stupid. I keep forgetting there is a "back" button for the interwebs... only on blogger though. I remember it just fine everywhere else. I come one, view my blog(s) to see what I wrote last (no, I can't remember), but then I have no idea how to get back to the bloggy home page since the "dashboard" button isn't displayed when viewing my personal blog. So what do I do? I hit "next blog" and then "dashboard." I just realized now that I could just go back. Sigh.

2. Nick is out of town. I have to say that in light of recent dramatic events, I'm slightly relieved to have this time to myself (and the Monster, of course). I was even looking forward to it. I missed him the second I dropped him off, but I didn't cry like I used to. I had a pretty good Monday. Once night fell though, I was plagued with this incredible guilt because I missed him, but not like I used to. And I said something kind of mean the day before he left... well, I didn't mean for it to be mean, but now I'm kind of worried that he thought it was mean. Sigh again.

I think I used to always be so sad when he left because I knew I wouldn't really get to talk to him. When he's in Seattle, he isn't able to text at work like he usually would here, and Nick is not a phone talker. I think our longest phone conversation in the history of our relationship was a whopping seven minutes. I kid you not.

We talked for maybe five minutes last night, he texted me "Morning" this morning and I haven't heard from since. So now I'm going back and forth between being angry and worried. And the worse part is that I know I'm going to feel guilty tonight for being mad and then the whole cycle is going to start over tomorrow.

3. After approximately three months (it's been at least a couple) I have finally finished re-reading the Seduction of the Crimson Rose. It is the fourth book of the Pink Carnation series and since two new books are coming out this winter, I wanted to re-read the existing ones... this summer. I started the Sookie Stackhouse books (amazing btw) after book 2 of PC, which meant I only had time to get in the third before school started. I was still trying to read Crimson Rose here and there, but I never got in more than ten pages at a time (I partially blame the Hunger Games for that though.) It really is a good book though, not my favorite of the series (that would be the Masque of the Black Tulip... I love Miles!), but good nonetheless. Well I finished it! Yay! But boo..... I started the Temptation of the Night Jasmine today, telling myself that I would only read it once I got into bed since I have a lot of reading to do for school this week. I'm now 133 pages into it and I haven't even looked at my school books (I did read the notes from Monday that Sarah scanned for me... thanks Sarah!)

I fail, and with that... onto more of the adventures of Charlotte and Robert!!!

Wait... I mean WWI!

Crap.