Wednesday, October 24, 2012

NaNoWriMo

I think I may have been hit with the crazy stick recently, for I have decided to participate in National Novel Writing Month. Yup. 50,000 words in one month. 


Do I think I can do it? No idea, but I look forward to trying. 

I've spent the last month doing tons of "research" for a novel idea that I've been kicking around for a while, and since NaNoWriMo is just a week away, I decided to go for it. Even if I don't win, I think it will be a great experience and maybe, just maybe, prove to be something that I want to do full-time (or as full-time as it gets when you're a mom, wife, and bread-winner.) 

So everyone, wish me luck, and if you don't hear from me next month, chances are I'm only mostly dead. 

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Ch-Ch-Changes

This year has not been my favorite. It's had some pretty awesome moments, but lately, things have kind of sucked. I really try not to share depressing thoughts, but I have been absent from the blogging world for a while, so I might as well write down why.

We thought N was going to get laid-off and though the thought terrified me beyond belief, N was delighted and planned on spending the next year or so living off his expected severance and some of the 401K (and go to school full time.) When it turned out that he was not going to be laid off, the plan didn't change. I don't really know what happened or how or why, but he is now set to resign at the end of the year. I am now in the throes of job hunting since it now falls to me to provide for my family. There is a large part of me that very much wants to provide this opportunity since he has spent the last 9 years hating his job and making those around him miserable because of it. He wants his degree and since he allowed me to get mine, he should be allowed to get his. That being said, there is still a part of me that is bitter with the thought of giving up my dream job and security. Even with a degree, there is no way I can get a job that will pay half of what he is making. Which means that I have to take our budget to a whole new level and pray that it is enough. See, bitter. And worried. Sick with worry.


 If that isn't bad enough, last week my grandmother died. It was a very peaceful passing and even though it was kind of sudden, it was a relief that she passed painlessly. The funeral was a fiasco. The feud that has ensued during the past 7 or so years finally came to a head in the most inappropriate and shameful manner. I am so ashamed of people I have blood ties to and I thank God every day that I no longer have any reason to be in contact with any of them. Which is also depressing since we didn't just lose a grandmother, we lost an entire family.


In happier news, my marriage has actually gotten stronger with N finally being able to leave the evil place. It's super scary, but worth it to see the change in him. Hopefully I will find a decent paying job soon.... one with benefits at least half as good as what we have now. Plus, I will get a house-husband. No more cleaning, cooking, organizing, etc. for me! Except for laundry. I don't trust him with the laundry. Not that I mind doing all that stuff, but it will make leaving L everyday a little easier knowing that I can come home and just play with him without worrying about chores. Also, I've been reading a ton of romance novels lately. It's so sad, I know, but I'm addicted. And N definitely seems pleased with me doing so since his sex life has dramatically improved since. Perhaps I will do a book review post (one with very brief summaries... I may be comfortable telling the world that I read these books, but I'm not comfortable discussing the details.) On that note, I did read The Bronze Horseman by Paullina Simons. It's a love story set in and around blockaded Leningrad (WWII). Simons has an amazing gift and, I kid you not, this story will break your heart and rip apart your soul. It's part of a series and the happy ending isn't reached until the final book, but it is so worth it. And I may be in love with Alexander. Thinking about it both warms my heart and makes me cry a little. Everyone needs to read it.

Also happy: my monster is amazing. He is still a giant ball of energy, and I admit that there are some days that I just can't keep up with him. Seriously, he never stops and is so curious about everything. He also loves airplanes, which pleases my dad to no end. Every time he sees one he yells "Plane!" then immediately imitates a plane (arms out, making vroom noises, and spinning in circles.) When it is no longer in sight, he looks up and says "Where'd it go? All gone. Bye-bye!" It melts my heart every time. Grandpa is planning to take him to view the planes as they take off while he is in town and I can't wait to see L's reaction when he see's them up close!

So there you have it. My life in a nutshell. Or part of it. Now I'm off to read another sleezy romance called The Great Scot. I kid you not. I will post some pictures of the monster's cuteness once I find my SD card.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Super Amazing Pasta Salad!

I'm back!!! (But only briefly.) I'm not sure if I've shared this before or not, but I make amazing pasta salad. The best part: it's super easy and only has 5 ingredients.


Pasta Salad
1 boneless skinless chicken breast
1/2 bag pasta (I used veggie rotini in the picture but anything works)
8 oz cherry/grape tomatoes, halved
Ken's Northern Italian salad dressing
parmesan cheese

Poach/bake/grill the chicken (I usually poach it but it works well any way). Cook the pasta as per its instructions. (Rise the pasta with a little bit of cold water if you're planning on eating it right away.) Combine chicken, pasta, and tomatoes in a medium size bowl. 
Pour in enough dressing to coat the salad (this varies each time and I never measure).
Sprinkle in some parmesan cheese and mix! 

Also good with some asparagus spears, but I didn't have any. Also good without meat (especially if you have asparagus.) 

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

MIA warning

Hello all,

I'm going to be MIA for a while. I know that's nothing new, but since it is planned this time, I figured I would give my avid readers a head's up. And by avid, I must mean my imaginary readers.

I am currently in a horrible bought of depression brought on by going off my anti-depressants (who'd have guessed?), quitting smoking, and pretty much life in general. I'm trying not to wallow in it, and I'm getting better, but it's going to take some time.

I hope that I will return to "normal" soon. I have updates, recipes, and book reviews to share, but I just can't seem to bring myself to actually write them down.

Anyway, I'm out. I hope everyone enjoys their summer on my behalf!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

TNSE: Finale

I forgot to post an update about the natural shampoo experiment in my last post! Oh the shame!

I quit.

Don't get me wrong, it wasn't bad, but I could not get the ratios right. I figured that after 5 weeks of either having dull or oily hair, it was time to find a different solution. So I'm now using an organic shampoo that I got at our local grocery store. It's called Organix (in Teatree Mint) and I found it at Albertsons. I love it. I know that I say that about everything, but I really do! I tried going back to our regular Garnier shampoo, but it made my hair extra poofy and it made my scalp itch like crazy. Even after the salon visit (for a hair cut and then again to get it colored- curse you gray hair!) my hair didn't feel super soft and clean like it used to. It felt pretty dry and, again, it made my scalp itchy. The homemade shampoo may have been more difficult that I planned, but the benefits of it are amazing! I don't have fly-aways like I used to (minus the evil gray hairs that defy gravity no matter what I do), my hair is always soft and shiny, and any dandruff/itch issues I had before are gone, especially since I started using the organix. I read somewhere that teatree oil is good for your scalp, so I'm not sure if it is this specific shampoo that has caused this change or just the organic stuff in general. Either way, I'm hooked. And I highly recommend this to everyone. Oh yeah, and since this shampoo doesn't have all the crap that regular ones do, its perfectly safe on colored hair. I just had red highlights put in and none of it came out during my last shower! Amazing!

Sunday, January 15, 2012

food, books, and resolutions.

Once again I have neglected the blogs. With classes, the decision to do a home-made Christmas, and a mini-vacation, I have been incredibly busy. And, lets face it, more than a little lazy. I started this post forever ago, but never got a chance to finish it until now.

Ok, thats a lie, but it's the thought that counts. Or something.

I'm going to try to be brief here, but since there's some catching up to do, that may not be possible. So let the dumping begin:

Food:
I've been cooking a lot more lately. We stayed with Nick's grandmother while in Milwaukee, and that lady can cook. A lot. A small snack generally meant that the table was covered in many goodies, and desert involved a choice between three cakes. We ate so much while at her house (there is no refusing grandma!) and once we got home, it seemed almost wrong to just grab whatever from some blah restaurant when  deliciousness could be created at home. And Janet gave me a few of her recipes.

No, I will not be sharing them. At least not until I can get her approval to do so.

I will share my chicken fingers recipe that I thought I was a genius in creating, and after having done so, I realized it was very similar to the one on the Bisquick box. So I'm not a genius. I didn't get an pictures taken because we gobbled them all up, but I'm sure you can imagine what they looked like. (Just imagine something really yummy.... and by something, I mean chicken fingers, because imagining cupcakes would just be wrong in this scenario.)

 Chicken Fingers of Ultimate Deliciousness
- 3 boneless, skinless chicken breasts, sliced to resemble fingers (1/2 inch strips)
- 2/3 c. bisquick
- 1/2 c. parmesan cheese
- 1/2 tsp salt
- 1/2 tsp paprika
- 1 egg, beaten
- 3 tbsp butter, melted

Heat over to 450. Grease cookie sheet (Misto or pam it). Add bisquick, cheese, salt, and paprika in a gallon ziplock bag. Dip the chicken in butter, put into baggie, shake, and then place onto sheet. (Do this in batches. The bag can't hold all of the chicken at once, I tried.) Bake for about 14 minutes, flipping the strips at the 7 minute mark.


Books:
I've sort of been on a reading kick these last couple of weeks since I didn't have much time to read before Christmas and school starts up tomorrow. I didn't get in as many books as I hoped to, but I think I did pretty well. It also helped that I read mostly YA, so it was easy to tear through them.

Everlasting by Alyson Noel
So I finally finished the last book of this series, and I'm pretty satisfied with how it ended. Or at least I think I am. I can't really remember how it ended, not that the series isn't memorable or anything, I read it while we were traveling (which means I read it on very little sleep.) This isn't the best YA series I've ever read, but I did enjoy reading it. The thing that bothers me about a lot of YA series is that the couple can't ever just be together, there's always something that keeps them apart. I understand that this keeps things interesting, but it can only go on for so long before it becomes annoying. This series was based on that very thing. In the last three (?) books or so, the main couple weren't able to physically touch each other, which was a different spin on the whole "they can never be together" theme, but it ended up becoming kind of preachy. It made it feel like a forced chastity belt, and that annoys me. I get it, you don't want to encourage teens to have sex, and maybe I should stick to reading adult novels if I want there to be sex, but it seems unrealistic to me. Anyway, I didn't like the series as a whole and I recommend it, but I won't be reading it again. And it's still better than Twilight. Or at least mostly better.

"The Infernal Devices" and "The Mortal Instruments" by Cassandra Clare
Ok, so I actually started reading the "Immortal" series (Noel's series) because I actually wanted to read The Mortal Instruments, but couldn't actually remember what it was called and looked up "Immortal" instead of "mortal" and Noel's series seemed interesting so I read it. That was a terrible sentence, and I'm sorry, but that's the best I can come up with. Anywho...
"Infernal Devices" was published after MI, but is actually the prequel, so I started with that one. The two books that are out right now- Clockwork Angel and Clockwork Prince- are awesome. The female lead reminds me a little of Arabella, from The Female Quixote, and I instantly fell in love with her. This series is set in Victorian England, and oh how I love it! Here's a synopsis. Unfortunately the third book doesn't come out until the end of this year, so you may want to read MI first.
"The Mortal Instruments" is set in modern-day New York (and fantasy places). The characters are a little younger and so you get a little more of that teenage angst in these books, but not so much so that it makes you want vomit and burn your eyeballs (or perhaps teenage angst only has that affect on me)- or perhaps ID seems a little more mature because of the period it's set in and has nothing to do with the age of the characters? Either way, I love this series. The characters are well developed (albeit a little predictable) and I was hooked from the moment I opened the first book. I mean, any book that features a sticker that says "Otaku Wench" on the backpack on the main gal, is definitely on the awesome list! That being said, the ending to the third book was so good (for me) that I am hesitant to pick up the fourth one. I like happy/complete endings (yeah, I'm sappy that way) and I'm not ready for that to go away.
I can't decide if I like Jace (man guy from MI) or Will (ID) better, but I do like ID a little more than MI- which I'm sure is not the case of most people. I hate to keep comparing everything to Twilight, but the more YA series I read, the more I realize how bad it was. This series is so good, that it ranks up there with The Hunger Games. Yeah, it's that good. And one of the best things about it is that the whole not-having-sex thing wasn't really an issue. They didn't have sex, but not because of some crazy notion of chivalry or curses. Ok, kind of, but it was much better that anything I've read so far!
Sorry if this makes no sense, I'm starting to get really sleepy and the husband is playing some music that has caused my brain to stop working.

A Dance with Dragons by George R.R. Martin
I was so excited to read this book, and so glad I didn't have to wait 6 years for it to come out like so many of Martin's loyal fans. That being said, it sucked. Martin is a great writer (by my standards) and I have loved this series. He is able to create characters that I either love or love to hate, and he has a real knack for killing them off at the most unexpected times (something that I believe makes a great series truly epic) and I loved him for it. This book was like one of those annoying filler episodes in anime- there was no real point to it. He introduced one new character who I think may play a bigger role in a future book(s), but other than that, there was no real development. The husband found this review (which is the first normal person review, if you scroll down on the page) and it explains exactly how I feel about this book, only in a much more eloquent and clever way. There are some spoilers in it, but I think it's better that you read them than actually read the book. Seriously. Will I read the next book? You bet your behind I will! I just hope he doesn't disappoint.

Ghost Story by Jim Butcher
I love the Dresden Files. Butcher is awesome, Dresden is awesome, Bob is freakin' awesome! That being said, this book wasn't as funny as his other ones, and I really don't like that Bob belongs to Butters in it (which isn't really a spoiler). I hope the next one is a little better.


Resolutions:
Its that time of year again. Yay.
This year, I want to be furiously happy. And get pregnant again. This means that I have to start taking better care of myself, both physically and mentally. I have to get back on my metformin and I need to get off of the anti-depressants. So here's the plan (not exactly a resolution, but I'm OK with that):
-Exercise daily
-Take metformin, which means cut out bad food (anything fried/greasy and super fatty)
- Cut out high fructose corn syrup
- Eat more veggies
- Get back on prenatals (because the sooner its in your body, the better)
- Get IUD removed (tmi? oh well!)
- Train for half marathon.................. yeah, you read that right. Nick and I don't plan on trying to conceive until June or so and, lets face it, if it's anything like the last time, it will take a while. I think that I will probably do Duke City (in Oct.) but I am seriously considering doing the Rock one in Vegas (Dec) instead (I can't remember what its called.) I always thought that running for hours was crazy, but I honestly think that I need to do something crazy if I'm ever going to change. What do I want to change, you ask? My lack of motivation. I am so lazy, so unmotivated, in almost everything that I do. And I hate myself for it. I think that the husband, though he will never actually say it, resents me for it. I can't be like this anymore, not if I want to be a good wife and a good mother. I can't. So something crazy it is. I really think that after finding the courage to do something so outside my comfort zone, will help me in my day-to-day activities. And the exercise will do wonders for my mental health. And if I happen to get pregnant before I actually compete, that's OK. At least I will know that I can do and, hopefully, I will be motivated to get back out there after that baby is born!


Well, there you have it. I'm off to bed now, I have to get up early tomorrow morning. And I'm going to be happy about it!